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[Oct. 1st, 2006|01:49 am] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | motorcycle drive by - third eye blind | ] |
today is officially me and matt's one month anniversary.
the last month of my life has been incredible.
i didn't think i could love and care for someone so much.
in other relationships, i used to tell the other person i loved them just because i thought that's what you did.
but with matt, it's different.
i tell him i love him because i mean it.
i mean it with my whole heart and everything i've got inside of me. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 16th, 2006|01:28 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | loved | ] |
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| | ride - cary brothers | ] |
it's this great feeling, you know, being in love.
the world looks perfect these days.
matt is pretty much the greatest thing that ever happened to me.
i've been searching for this feeling my whole life.
p.s.
we saw 'the last kiss' tonight.
go see it.
amazingggg. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|06:41 pm] |
i've really taken a liking to photography.
i may even want to make a career out of it in the future.
i got my first assignment in class today and i can't wait to get started.
it's so amazing how something as simple as a photograph can make you feel a million things all at once.
my dad's digging up his old slr's from the 70's and letting me have them.
he has so much knowledge of the things i have interest in, it's really amazing. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 10th, 2006|07:04 pm] |
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| |  calm | ] |
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| | who's to say-vanessa carlton | ] |
wow this weekend was so good.
matt surprised me and came home from stony brook for the weekend.
he got me a stony brook sweatshirt! and necklaces for our rings.
friday night i went out to dinner in nyack with the girls and then matt picked me up from rachels.
we drove to south, which was super quiet and the moon was so pretty.
he brought a blanket so we layed down on the big hill and just talked and cuddled.
it was beautiful.
saturday night was sam's party which was awesome.
i forgot how fun and nice those girls are.
some of the guys were dicks and me and steph didn't get the amount of beer we chipped in for, but whatever, as long as sam had a good time.
after that i went over to sleep at morgan's.
we sat around the fire until about 3am with matt, a bunch of the football team, and jackie. this other girl jaclyn came too.
one thing led to another and the police came.
once everything was settled ellen went to get dunkin' donuts for everyone.
i fell asleep with matt on the couch around 5 or 6am while morgan steph and madden slept on the air matresses.
i woke up around 11 and went home.
my brother was working at the street fair so we all decided to go get lunch and hang around.
after, i met up with matt for coffee and to say goodbye for the week.
it's hard not being able to see him all the time but it just makes me value the time we do get together more.
he comes home again this weekend.
i miss him already. |
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| schoolslame. |
[Sep. 7th, 2006|09:09 pm] |
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| |  apathetic | ] |
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| | fair-remy zero. | ] |
it was the first day of sophomore year today and i'm already bored with it all.
usually i can't sleep at all the night before school and wake up super early.
i slept like a log last night and woke up at 6:20 like always.
the drive over was totally calm, i wasn't nervous or anything.
we listened to death cab for cutie in dylan's car.
i wasn't nervous the whole day, it just felt so boring and school doesn't feel the same.
school is honestly OVER RUN by freshman and i just miss seeing everyone like last year.
my classes are okay, considering how steph is in like 90% of them.
i just hope this year picks up and gets better.
i'm in a weird spot right now.
i miss my boyfriend too much.
i'm having a rough time adjusting to the whole school thing.
hopefully september will just come and go quickly. |
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| i remember when the days were long |
[Sep. 6th, 2006|09:59 pm] |
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| | photobooth-deathcab. | ] |
in two hours summer '06 will officially be over.
this summer wasn't just the two months you get off before you have to go back to school again for me.
it was more than that.
it was me steph and emily falling asleep in steph's pool for 2 hours.
it was falling asleep on andriana's roof to the postal service with her and all her friends drunk out of our minds.
it was the sock 'em bopper tournament on emily's front lawn.
it was sneaking out to north rockland and ending up naked in a hot tub.
it was all of us discovering our love for nintendo 64.
it was falling for matt, the type of amazing person you thought only existed in fairytales.
it was me and emily getting hit on by dreadlock rastas on the beach.
it was singing whitney houston at the top of our lungs caught in three hour traffic on the way to six flags.
it was red robin and the waitress who has a crush on us.
it was ari's mom driving us to taco bell when we were completely stoned.
it was bowser coming home.
it was the hookah bar in the village.
it was stephanie's house party and ari jumping into the shocked pool.
it was danielle and our trips to panera.
it was having wayyy too many shots at wingfest and the results of those too many shots.
it was coffee at the diner with emily at 3am.
it was summer school.
it was nyack late at night with matt when we kissed on the pier.
it was tiki tuesdays at my house.
it was listening to dog problems a thousand times over.
it was me and steph singing our hearts out to if it makes you happy at the sheryl crow concert.
it was me attempting to run home piss drunk hysterical crying at 4am.
it was steph and ari making sure that i didn't.
it was the last night of summer when all of us got caught for innocently going to the diner at 1am.
looking back on it, this summer was one of the best so far.
i'm not ready to give it up just yet.
sophomores '07?
let's make it a good one. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 5th, 2006|12:53 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | octopuses garden - the beatles. | ] |
where to begin.
saturday night was the john mayer and sheryl crow concert which was amazing.
in summary, me steph and vaness had some beers and danced with 45 year old women.
cool.
matt left on sunday.
i don't think an hour goes by where he doesn't cross my mind.
he says he's having fun and settling into his dorm.
12 days till he comes home.
today i went shopping with ari in the village.
we had so much fun.
we spent like 3 hours in urban outfitters.
ari got tons of stuff and i got some skinny jeans and a cool vest.
then we went to this great mexican place for dinner called gonzales y gonzales.
guacamole=delicious.
phrase of the day: 'lazy mary'.
i really love my life lately.
it's been a while since i've been able to say that.
i'll be in a classroom in about 48 hours.
weird. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 2nd, 2006|01:15 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | infinite. | ] |
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| | first day of my life - bright eyes. | ] |
tonight was hands down one of the best nights of my life.
matt and i ate dinner with everyone which was fun as always.
then when it got dark we drove into nyack and shared an ice cream.
vanilla and chocolate swirl with m&m's.
we walked down to the water and sat on one of the benches
the skyline was breathtaking.
everything was lit up and perfect.
i gave him a matching promise ring that spells out 'love' so we can both look at ours when we miss eachother and not feel so far away.
i also gave him a handwritten copy of the beatles song 'till there was you'
i really love that song and it reminds me of him everytime i hear it.
he gave me his football sweatshirt and a note he wrote me to read whenever i'm lonely or miss him while he's away.
i'll probably end up reading that note a thousand times over.
we walked onto the pier to the edge of the water and kissed in the drizzle.
on the drive home lullaby by shawn mullins was playing.
it's one of my favorite songs.
it's never on the radio.
i never wanted tonight to end.
he leaves for college on sunday.
i'm going to miss him every minutes he's gone.
i'm sleeping in his sweatshirt.
goodnight
there was love
all around
but i never heard it singing
no, i never heard it at all
till there was you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|01:36 am] |
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| | enthralled | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | good night - the beatles. | ] |
i'm so happy right now.
i feel like i'm dreaming.
and if i am, i never want to wake up. |
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| tell me your secrets, ask me your questions |
[Aug. 25th, 2006|02:33 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | enthralled | ] |
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| | see you soon - coldplay | ] |
so last night was the shins concert. which was amazing as expected. i think the best part of the night was when they started to play 'new slang' which is basically the song that everyone knows them for. about 15 seconds into it james just stops singing. he totally forgot the words. then he went into the song again where he left off, and stopped again. the guy forgot the words to his own song. priceless.
after that our car broke down in the middle of brooklyn at 11 at night so we left it there and got a ride back home.
so typical.
today was my dad's birthday.
i got him a new pair of loafers.
i love him, i really do.
then me and steph ate at the diner in the governer pataki booth. she ordered a bowl of lemons and a vanilla milkshake as usual; i ordered cheese fries and a diet coke as usual. we basically spent an hour trying to figure out what day fathers day is.
i still have no clue.
steph cursed at her mom a lot so she had to leave early.
tonight i had one of the most sincere and deep conversations of my life.
it was with a boy.
we talked about everything from our views on saving the enviroment to how we like nothing more than to feel small in the universe amidst a bigger picture.
he really is something great.
goodnight |
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| birthday! |
[Aug. 17th, 2006|01:07 am] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | falling - ben kweller. | ] |
so basically, my birthday was awesome.
people came over last night and that was pretty fun. we swam, ate, steph got wasted (hhaha), and stayed up till like 4am laughing in my kitchen with dylan rj(mole man) and tyler. today was the best tho. i opened my gifts which were pretty cool. i got a pocketwatch (i love you emily haha), an awesome egyptian king incense holder and a bunch of other cool stuff from steph, tons of cash, a bob saget t-shirt (gina<33), tickets to the shins concert next week! (dylan your the best brother ever, seriously) a much needed new pair of jeans, a bunch of make up stuff, peace sign earrings (my mom knows me better than i thought haha), and a clotter ring. (i'm a bad irish so i probably just butchered the spelling) after presents, me dyl em and vinny drove down to tarrytown station and took the trains and subways into greenwhich. its seriously my favorite part of the city. we ate at this cool restaraunt called elephant&castle and then went to this swanky egyptian hookah bar off of 1st and houston. we got an apple hookah and i felt like my legs were going to fall off. so relaxing.
overall, my birhtday was amazing.
thank you everyone.
<3 |
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| mehhhhh! |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|11:17 pm] |
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| | listless | ] |
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| | on your porch - the format. | ] |
i'm super nervous right now. i have my summer school final tomorrow.
if i don't pass, i'll repeat the course, it'll fuck up my whole schedule, and i'll have wasted an entire 6 weeks of my summer sitting in a sticky classroom full of kids who wear their shirts 20 sizes too big.
i really, really don't want that happening. i studied all my tests, homeworks, notes, and quizzes for the past hour and really payed attention during review this morning. i reeeeeeeally hope i pass.
on a lighter note! summer school ends tomorrow, my birthday party is tomorrow, and my real birthday is in 24 and a half hours! YES.
wish me luck!
<3 |
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| come on let's make up a dance |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|01:52 am] |
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| | amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | young pilgrims - the shins. | ] |
i just got back from the format concert about an hour ago. i went with danielle, steph, and dale.
with no exaggeration, it was the best concert of my life.
i had and amazingggg time. they played with anathallo, street to nowhere, and rainer maria. the format is surprisingly awesome live. i was a little dissapointed that they played alot more of the older stuff off of interventions and lullabies rather than the newer stuff off of dog problems, but it was still awesome. some douche bags started to mosh during the acoustic version of snails. reallll cool guys. i think my heart failed for a second or two when they played she doesn't get it and the first single. i danced like an idiot and had way too much fun. i was pretty bummed that they didn't play oceans, but i'll live.
after the concert, we walked to union square and stuffed ourselves with mcdonalds.
it's becoming a tradition.
<3
http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=12113581&uid=5850520 |
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| fuck the po-lice. |
[Aug. 12th, 2006|12:13 am] |
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| | enthralled | ] |
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| | boston - augustana. | ] |
second run in with the po-po's so far this summer.
i'm getting too old for this shit.
<3
tonight was so much fun, hahahah. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 7th, 2006|01:32 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | tripping billies - DMB | ] |
i got a 90 on my math test. maybe i'm not such a failure after all. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 7th, 2006|12:35 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | please forgive me - david gray. | ] |
today, i fell in love with a man.
his name is dave matthews.
the concert was amazing; dave and the band are sooo good live. it was such a fun atmosphere, everyone was just so chilled out and free spirited. we met some really cool people. the other bands were awesome too. i saw slightly stoopid, bella fleck and the flecktones, david gray, and tea leaf green (ft. the yonder mountain string band!) and we got awesome spots too! please excuse me while my legs go collapse, i've been literally on my feet for the past 7 hours. |
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| EW. |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|11:41 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | keep your voices down - days away. | ] |
ohhh goddd. so i just got home from summer school like two hours ago. i was dead tired as usual so i decided to take a nap in the basement. all the sudden i feel something crawling up my arm, then my neck. i open my eyes to see a HUGE FUCKING RAT on my blanket. it's eyes were all bugged out and infected looking and it had like a 5 inch tail. i freaked and threw the blanket off off me and ran upstairs and told dylan and my dad. my dad was like 'oh yeahhh, i've been meaning to take care of that.'
excuse me while i go barf. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|11:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | cookie jar - jack johnson. | ] |
ohhhhhhh heyyyyyyy
summer just got like 1,000 times better.
2 days till my parents go away.
4 days till dave.
9 days left of bummer school.
13 days till my birthday.
basically no one's parents are around for all of august.
dave matthews, the format, steel train, john mayer&sheryl crow, minus the bear concerts all within the next three months.
OH ! and the chaise lounges for the pool came today.
life life life, thanks for getting good again.
i know this is late but,
lance bass is gay.
r.i.p. lauren smith's soul, 1991-2006.
we had a good run. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|10:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | one shot, two shots - the format | ] |
sooo basically everyone let me know today just how terrible of a person i am.
i'm a slacker.
i'm throwing my life away.
i'm a whore.
i drink too much.
i smoke too much.
i'm a dissapointment.
i'm a bad friend.
i'm a bad daughter.
i'm a bad sister.
it's alot to take in. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|12:19 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Strong Enough - Sheryl Crow | ] |
i felt like total scum for what i did tonight.
i still feel like scum.
he was way too old.
but i realized that i can't go through life making bad descisions and then beating myself up for them.
i did what i did and i don't regret it.
i love my friends more than anything.
wingfest '06 overall was amazing.
live. learn. love.
emily&gina, you guys are the best. |
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